WinÂona Ryder has opened up about the â€œextra large breakdownâ€ she suffered after splitting up with former fiancÃ© Johnny Depp.
Despite it coinciding with the peak of her acting career, the break-up sent the actress â€“ then one of Hollywoodâ€™s most promising young starlets â€“ spiralling into a nervous depression.
â€œI had just done ÂDracula and Edward Scissorhands. I had just had my first break-up, my first real heartbreak,â€ says the elfin 37-year-old.
â€œAnd it was ironic because everybody else just thought I had everything in the worldâ€¦ I had no reason to be depressed. Everything was at its peak but inside I was completely lost.
â€œI remember feeling, â€˜I canâ€™t complain about anything because Iâ€™m so lucky, Iâ€™m so lucky.â€™ After that I realised I needed to take time off more.â€
These days, she says, she has more balance in her life and looks to Âfemale thespians such as Meryl Streep and Kate Winslet for inspiration.
â€œI have tried to develop a whole life so when I work I can come home to something,â€ she tells Elle magazine in an exclusive interview.
She adds of Winslet: â€œDuring the Oscars, I was thinking about how she totally has that thing. She has her family and children and life and she seems really together â€“ and yet she can completely devastate you on the screen.â€
Winona has kept a low profile since she received three years probation in 2002 for shoplifting in Beverly Hills. During the trial she was accused of using drugs without valid prescriptions.
Now making a screen comeback, she plays a tempestuous, suicidal poet in her latest film, The Private Lives Of Pippa Lee, and she also portrays Spockâ€™s mother in the new hit Star Trek prequel film.